My loved ones, how are you all doing?
This week was one of much stress and excitement! Because we were teaching cristel everyday of the week so that she could be ready for baptism and SHE WAS BAPTISED!! WHOOOO i had my first baptism in the mission. its really interesting to think that i helped a young girl grow her faith and want to follow the example of our savior and recieve a very important gift the gift of the holy ghost and be cleaned of all sins. words can not express the joy i felt for her and the memories that flooded to my mind of my own baptism.
We also had zone conference this week that was really inspiring. my mission president is such a good man that is really intune with the spirit and truly strives to help us. i was able to feel more confident and more ready to work harder here in Rio Bueno and helps others come unto christ.
Now i would like to talk to all about something that has been on my mind a lot this last week along with the atonement.
OBEDIENCE
This week i studied a little of the story of Saul, the king of Isreal. The lord commanded Saul and his people to UTTERLY destroy the amalekites- every woman, child, man, and animal. the lord wanted 100% obedience from Saul in this commanment. Saul performed about 95% because he saved the best animals for sacrifice. In his mind he thought it was best to do this for the Lord than to just destroy them. When Samuel the prophet saw Saul he told him ´I have performed the commandment that the lord wanted¨ In his mind he must have thought similiar to our thoughts when following the commandments of the lord, following the spirits promptings, parents, cooking, boses, rules, laws, etc. For me its the rules of the mission. We usually have thoughts like this 1) i have done it good enough or followed it close enough 2) the little things do not matter 3) the lord or parents or recipe dont care about the small things 4) i did the hard part 5) if im 100% obedient what will others think? what if im not cool? what if this person yells at me? what if they say no?. How many of you have thought this? How many of you have at some time or another not fully completed the task at hand? how did you feel? How many of you have tried hard to complete the task at hand following everything exactly or tried to follow exactly but didnt and fell short?
In the eyes of the lord obedience comes first. we may sacrifice big or hard things in our life but if not done with 100% obedience it has no purpose. BUT obedience... exact obedience does not mean that we have the ability to follow all the things perfectly all the time because we are human we are motal and we will fall short. Satan is stronger than ever and smarter than ever he knows how to try us and to get in our minds and make us feel so unworthy and so bad over little things. Our lives can get so crazy even here in the mission. At times i want to rip my own hair out trying to be obedient but constatly in one area i fall short.
In my mission i have very much coe to learn and you can to that exact 100% obedience is our desire to follow our savior. Having a heart and mind that is truly trying to live all the things and all rules in the eyes of the lord is 100% obedience when we fall short. we have the atonement that cleans us and helps us restart completely clean the next day. its only okay when we during this time had a heart truly focused on doing the task with 100 percent obedience. however it is easy to fell so bad and so frustrated with yourself when you fall short i have many tiems wanted to throw myslef on the ground and have a tantrum like a 2 year old girl that could accomplish somehting she wanted. i know that the days i dont leave the house right on time that my savior knows that my heavenly father is chuckling a little when i am so mad at myself and that he just wnats to hug me and tell me he knows i am trying. Our savior truly knows us perfectly and wnats to help us. he has his hand reached out for us and he must take it. i have tried more this week to focus on this and my awesome companion that is so dear to my heart gave me a quote i want to share with my love for all of you to have a good week and never give up and always know we can be clean from sins and start a new life again more obedient.... the quote is from president hinckley..
¨Please.... Do not NAG yourselves with the thoughts of failure ¨SIMPLY DO¨ what you can do in the best way you know how and the Lord will acept your effort¨
pres. Thomas s monson
Gods love is there for you whether or not you feel you deserve love. it is simply ALWAYS there
p.s photos of the baptism and a lady i am teaching english and lessons
Much love Hermana Kogianes
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